Florien’s General Thoughts
That vision… I haven’t thought of that day in years. It is still so vivid, every detail of it. I can still smell the candlewax, the tingling of magic in my fingers. Seeing my younger self hurt more than I thought it would. So keen to please, so desperate to be wanted. So unaware. How did I not hear the door unlock? I know it was just a memory, but I had to say something. It would not have changed anything.
… Now that I think of it, why was I seeing myself in my own memory?
Florien’s Thoughts on the group
Adam/Tarvo
Hearing Tarvo’s voice nearly brought me to tears. He sees life in such a simple way, chooses his words very straightforwardly. Quite different from Adam, but I find that I don’t have a preference between the two. I simply have not gotten to know Adam as much as I hoped for.
…
If it was Adam, would we be in this situation? No, he wouldn’t have killed the guard. If I had just explained the situation better to Tarvo, if I had told him how severe things were, maybe he wouldn’t have reacted in such a way. I could have prevented this. I could have stopped him.
My mind was blank, all those spells forgotten. I told the guards it was an accident, but I know those words were empty. A life was taken, and now I must meet that man’s family. How do I explain and apologise to them?
I wonder if Adam would know what to say.
… Perhaps we are both equally fumbling in the dark.
Kerrick
It’s good to see that he seems unchanged by the time apart. Still Kerrick, still by Adam’s side. Sitting in the tavern really took me back to our first day in Waterdeep, when things were more simple. That was only a few days ago, no?
If he was in my shoes, I wonder what he would do. Maybe things would be better. I never got to talk to him properly…
Rona
You look different. Not that it was bad, but it was surprising. I almost didn’t recognise you, but your voice and smile remain unchanged. Something else is different too, I feel it in the space that lies between us. But you still care for me, I feel it.
I care for you—so much that it paralyses me. All I want is to be able to protect you, protect the others. I don’t know how to do that, and it makes me feel a frustration that I cannot express. I am tired, Rona. I miss our quiet moments. Maybe it is wishful thinking, to want some respite. With everything going on, the things we have seen, how can I pretend nothing has changed?
I’m sorry for what I’ve done. I know I said I would not pretend to be someone I wasn’t, but I had to do something. I would have done it for anyone in this party.
Florien’s Thoughts on specific NPCs
Faust
I still am afraid. After all these years, I do not know what to say—I probably never will.
You gave me three days. How is that enough? What am I walking into? Why do I see you everywhere I go?
I can feel the panic settling in again. After everything that’s happened, all I want is to recollect myself.
I thought I had changed. I thought, with all the things my friends have told me, that I would be braver.
I hate that I used your name. But… it saved Tarvo.